Poetry

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One Year ago I was roaming around

One Year ago I was roaming around

more clueless than today

a constant brush of German words in my head

entering my ears but not quite my mind

do your homework, sit up straight,

feed the cat, be good, don’t hit your sister, stay awake, don’t you dare fall asleep,

we don’t have a cat

sometimes people get tired of the things they see everyday

some people are bathing in the comfort of familiarity

of no fast beating hearts

of perfectly dry skin

of the utter calmness of their fingertips

I can’t

so I came here with a frequent heartbeat of 150 and I can still feel my skin go

from hot to cold

I love it

the way English language rolls off my tongue

the way Natasha, the first American girl I met, is now my friend

the way I watch football, the way I go to a high school

the way I have a brother now,

who thinks he’s smarter than me,

but not really.

I love the way this feels normal

but people stopped asking me when I arrived

now they want to know when I have to leave

and I know my time is slowly creeping up on me

but I don’t want to go.

Ask how long it takes to establish a life,

less than 6 months, that’s for sure

I have to say goodbye

I’m leaving a whole life behind,

and I am not coming back to where I have left off

and that’s ok as long as I make those 300 days

pretty and memorable.

All those little things nobody really talks about,

all the people in this class,

the people in the hallway I see everyday

make it hard for me not to make this

good

Thank you for letting me be one of you

Unspoken words make their way to reality

as I speak what I have always longed to say

I want to be somebody

You made me somebody

Is why, instead of goodbye,

I say see you soon.